We are looking for our soulmate,
for our second half,
for "our" person,
"our guy",
"our man"......
We are all someone's half.
And one man and one woman make a couple,
but is it a "perfect match"?!
It is like a basket of apple's halves,
and if you take two halves they make an apple,
but it is two different halves,
the apple won't be perfect,
looks like a whole apple,
looks almost perfect,
but it doesn't match,
it is not two halves of the same apple.
And we are looking for this perfect match...
Two perfect halves.
And we would love to be honest, and open, and jump into the relationship and love, and enjoy, and experience, and live happily ever after when we meet that special person,
but since we were hurt and did mistakes and wrong choices so many times,
we are trying to protect our hearts by been distant, been discreet, been private, playing it safe, protecting ourselves.
And because of these walls it is not going anywhere,
we are not building anything,
we are destroying it with our own hands.
It is like you are planting a flower, but not adding any water, and you want this flower to survive, and you are unconsciously not putting any efforts, because you are scared, because you do not want to be hurt again.
We are just playing it cool. We just pretend like we do not care, and we are looking for an easy way out, still dreaming about a soulmate, letting the fortune or a chance or life to figure it out itself.
We are getting involved with people, and we are trying so hard not to get involved,
we are going through dates trying to get through to our person.
We are becoming intimate encounters with some people,
we belong to them in that special moment of intimacy, putting away our souls, locking up our hearts, and just using our bodies, shutting off our minds, with the idea not to feel, not to love, not to belong, not to get attached.
We are scared to love, we are scared to open up and share our thoughts, our fears, our love.
People are selfish.
People lie that do not need each other.
People use people.
And in the vocabulary we see new phrases like "intimate encounters", "friends with benefits", "fling", "booty call", "one-night stand", "no strings attached", "open relationship", "drunk dial", "fwb" and etc.
We do not want to love or we are scared to love?!
What are we saving?! Souls? Hearts?
Aren't we losing ourselves or pieces of ourselves, giving away every time piece by piece to people that come to our life and easily leave forever?!
3 comments:
I don't think we lose ourselves or give ourselves away Natasha, but rather, find a different way each time we discover something that is not right for us. The older we get, the more baggage we carry with us into relationships. If we are able to somehow stay wise in our older age, but maintain our innocence, things will sort themselves out eventually. A friend with benefits is no friend, as a true friend does not benefit from casual sex and doesn't care about the "friend" they are with truly.
i believe that two pieces of fruit can taste good together! : )
~seth
I have experienced that two pieces of two totally different fruits taste good together as well, strawberry and kiwi, banana and strawberry and etc. But I was talking about been complete, been whole one total united thing, where two halves are pieces of the same fruit like a puzzle.
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